I have had struggles in my life, like most people. Some created out of choices I have made, others just happen. But never have I been tested in my faith as I have in the last two weeks.
My father was diagnosed with Small Cell Carcinoma....lung cancer. As with all lung cancers, there is no cure.
My natural reaction was fear. For my mother, for myself and my children, for my brothers. But over the course of the last few weeks, that fear has decreased. It will never completely go away. I can honestly say that I am not ready to be without my father.
But in all things, YHWH is who I need to seek support, guidance, and strength from. I made the mistake in the last few weeks of reaching out to someone from my past. Someone who I thought could give me emotional support. I was SO wrong. And why I ever doubted my faith is YHWH I will never know.
But this I do know, no matter what happens, YHWH is the only one I will turn to. He will give me what I need. Not any human.
Be blessed, and please say prayers for my father as he begins his treatments in the next week or so.