This morning will be spent going grocery shopping with my mom. I don't need much more than milk, so really, I could just hit the small store down the hill.
But I won't. I will get to spend a couple hours with my mom, talking, chatting, and just spending time together.
Growing up, I didn't get along with my mother. She is not one to show her emotions, and I was an overly emotional child. Everything sent me into a tail spin. Older brother and younger brother picking on me, someone said something to me, or just a bad day would put me into tears. I don't think she honestly knew how to "handle" me. I was the only girl, and she was busy trying to raise 3 kids, help my dad with our small farm, and always working a full time job. My emotional well being wasn't high on the radar.
There was always my grandmother there as well. She was not an easy person to live with, and more often than not, she and I were at odds about something. For whatever reason, my mother tended to lean towards my grandmother's side of any issue, most likely to keep the peace.
Our relationship got better when I had my children. I looked to her for advice, and she was always willing to offer her thoughts and tips. I will always appreciate it. She taught me how to be a good mother. I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but because of her guidance, my children make me proud every single day.
I have noticed more of a change, since my grandmother passed away a year ago. We are becoming even closer. We probably will never be best friends, but we are confiding in each other more and more. We go shopping together almost weekly. On those trips, we talk about my father, my brothers, my children, and other family members.
I so enjoy finally having a true relationship with my mom. She is an amazing lady, and I regret waiting until I was an adult to figure that out. But no matter how old you get, it is never too late to start a relationship.